Five Minute Friday: Remember

BipolarIt’s a lot easier to forget than it is to remember. But it’s a lot more important to remember than it is to forget.

At least it is for me.

I have a kind of manic-depression (bi-polar, which is a stupid name, frankly) that’s called rapid cycling. That means the time spent wallowing in the valley or shouting on the mountaintop is a lot briefer than it is for most people with the “garden variety” of manic-depression. I usually spend just a few days in either place, maybe a couple weeks, though sometimes the depression can last a month or so.

But it never fails that when I’m in the valley, it seems like the sun has never shone. I beg for prayers. I lie, weeping, on my bed; or numb. Mostly numb.

Then the clouds part, and the sun comes out and everything is just the Best. Thing. Ever.

Oh, you wouldn’t believe the happy in our house this morning. And it’s only going to get better.

For a few days.

Then I’ll be back in the tar pits.

That’s why It’s important for me to remember: as regularly as night follows day, I’m going to get depressed again. And just as regularly, I’ll return to happy. Remembering gives me a chance to prepare for the bad times (cooking ahead, doing laundry, getting some fun time in away from home), and, honestly, keeps me from wanting to carry through with the evil plans I think will relieve my darkness.

Thank God for remembering. Even when I forget.

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What’s Five Minute Friday?

A blog-prompt project dreamt up by LisaJo Baker, which you can read about here. The basic idea is that you spend five minutes of writing, generally unedited (I correct typos, WAY too OCD not to do that), on a prompt that she provides just after midnight via a tweet, then spread the word, and link up. Interested? Join up. Enjoy a delightful assortment by clicking on the picture to the right.

Today’s Five Minute Friday selection is also here!

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10 thoughts on “Five Minute Friday: Remember

  1. I have never been diagnosed, but I am pretty sure I have some form of depression. I have called it “functional depression” for lack of the ability to get a diagnosis.

    Thank you for sharing your experiences Cynthia. Remembering that “this too shall pass” is sometimes the only thing that gets me up in the morning. ~hugs~

    • Deanne, you really need to have this checked out. Seriously. If I didn’t know, somewhere deep down inside, that my depression always lifts after a while, I would totally have killed myself many years ago. I am SO GLAD I got a diagnosis, even if the treatment is less than great.

  2. oh, how i’ve been here. went through a very deep depressed state where i had extreme mood swings and spent much time in the pit of despair. deciding to be intentional about life and understanding that down times are just a part of life but they don’t have to rule me anymore were key in helping me change. i still have my down moments, for sure, but it’s night and day. plus, antidepressants helped. 🙂

  3. Been there.
    When I see depression trying to take me.. I grab my DEPRESSION PLAYLIST on pinterest. It’s a collection of songs, videos, sayings, art that instantly revive my senses and gets me back to myself..
    Try it.

    Or create a folder called, LAUGH FILE, and stick in all the jokes and items that make you laugh hysterically.

    • Those are GREAT ideas. I do have channels on Pandora that are better when I’m depressed, but I often find myself with no ready access to a radio or computer when I’m in bed with the covers over my head. I need to work on that. I’m also a big fan of CuteOverload.com but again, because, the computer…

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